replacement for battle?
Posted by maxx on August 11, 2002 at 18:14:07:
OF a battle. Deciding to get married to a man I fell in love with
after many many years of loving women resulted in a tattooed wedding
ring. Losing my womb to cancer resulted in a fetal skeleton nestled
in a flower on the arm I use to hold new babies. When I was 18, I
tattoed two winged mythical creatues on either ankle. On my forearm
is a symbol I saw clearly in an instructive dream. And I even have
one on my face. I do not seek out tattoos for the pain, nor or they
more valuable to me beacause they hurt. Life hurt first.
As a sorta weird person I'll admit the endorphin rush is very
pleasant to me, as is the clarity I can find when meditating roundly
enough not to wince at a needle penetrating my flesh over & over
I think perhaps that tattoos and piercings and henna (and have you
seen the metal that gets inserted under the skin yet?-wild) are an
expression of separation from the rules we(at least as westerners)
were raised with and an expresson of connection to something sensed
as greater and common.
I used my own rituals to get thru the trials of my life. Getting a
tattoo after kinda closed the chapter.
Since using henna, I commemorate and close more frequently. Even tho
it fades, for a time it is a visible and discussable commentary on my
Connecting is the thrust I feel in the under moods of most I'm
meeting these days. Of course some body art is purely ego, but under
that, why body art and not a better car? Why body art and not a
pinkie ring? Can't be just fashion. Feels like a reaching. tats,
piercings, henna, body mod, woad. What's up with so many in so many
places doing similar things in different ways. Were all marked.
I've now rambled.
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